Stress

"... Because, pictures last longer than one's memory"

Never in my life I've complained so much about studies. At this point, I HATE ASSIGNMENTS!! Remember once, when u had all assessments concentrated on just exams but not assignments? and you just wished you were examined by assignments to escape the hectic week of exams? URGH. now, I just wish for no assignments and tests. Is that possible? What i've done this semester, specifically for the past 4 months:

• Read over 180 journals. not blardy 5 page journals but 20+ pages.. 
• Written hmm about 20,000 words worth of assignments. maybe more? I dont know. but its way over my limit. 
• Never used Dictionary.com that much in my life till NOW..
• Learned so many new words till I forgot what was the first word I learned
• Google - without it, goodbye Honours.
• Green Tea is MY LIFE SAVER. it does wonders! LOVE it! pre-requirement, green tea everyday for a living.

The ONE good side:
It's all gonna be overrrrr in 2 weeks time!! WOOT!

buttt...

then comes, T-H-E-S-I-S.

This will be done and over with.. and I foresee myself being proud for all the shits that I've went through. I will i will.. I hope =/ *keeps positive thinking....*

needs hugs ;(

Signing out~
my hair is growingg!!!!! end of this year, mission: cut bangs! like it or not.
im blogging much faster than before. must be the skills that i've brought in from writing so much for assignments LOL

Perseverance

 "Can I follow you like a shadow behind, catch you if you fall, carry you if you're weak, smile along when you're happy, and to remind you that you're never alone?"

I cant wait to end this with you. Despite that you gave me so much knowledge in life, you had too much responsibilities I had to cope up with. It's so hard going through life like this for years. I will, for sure acknowledge every single bit of life experience with you. I guess this is how, people learn and cultivate one's ingenuity for future advantage. Whether or not I'll get back together with you again in the future, I'll ensure that it will be off for the better. For now, let the 18th of June 2010 mark the end of our relationship, Mr. Exam.

I'm going to start bitching about studies because it's stressing me out..
I nearly failed my 40% assignment F**ku! need some self efficacy to survive. Pressures on when u're surrounded with super smarties and you feel like a dumb shit. fuckmylife. I've never been so hardworkin in life for such a long duration of 3 months! In my ENTIRE LIFE! Blardy 3 months unlike a week or two in previous semesters. People say "enjoy your study life as much!!" UGRH! how to enjoyyyy..... keepin up with smarties damn freakin hard you knoww..its like if you're dumb means you're dumb?if you're a genius means you're a wizard? ass..

the good stuff? what im learning is no doubt interesting. ;) that's the ONLY thing that keeps me going.

but then again, go dieshitasscrazybabi assignments and exams!

*I forgot to add in this lovely song. Yiruma is awesomeshit!!

wish I could play like him. or someone please teach me. :)

Signing out~

loves eating ice cream with nestum! nyuuumm..

Weep for joy

"Lets not go through sadness under a weeping willow but through tears of joy under a sacred tree"

I found a rather interesting statement from The Age:

Without sadness, we would never know what happiness is.... To be fully human – to be "normal" – is to be occasionally engulfed by waves of grief or sadness, and stymied by feelings of despair, doubt or disappointment. Without all that, we'll never know what happiness is (even assuming we know what we're looking for).... Sadness is as authentic an emotion as happiness. The fleeting moments of bliss and joy, and even the deeper sense of contentment that occasionally envelopes us, only make sense because they represent such a contrast with the experience of pain, trauma or sadness, or even with those times when we feel ourselves trapped in a tedious, dreary routine.

So is happiness beyond our control? something to ponder.. :)

For the past week,

Just baked Vanilla Butter Cake yesterday!! for breakfast, tea time and supper! Nyum..

At last! i found myself a uni bag from Kate Hill that I love much!!! Pls stay as strong as forever, coz u're not cheap! 

My new pouch for my baby camera coz I lost the old one!!!!! DAMN SAD OK! and this shit cover cost me $20 = RM60? I can get it for RM10 in Msia. It's the cheapest n nicest I could find here in Melb :( Alllll for my baby cam.. But so prefer this cover than the previous one. hehe!

This is what I learn for Micro. More more more journals :( but less exams :) in a way, its better for me. I HATE EXAMS!

For Macro presentation. Macro is no easy shit! especially with all the methodology.. equations...symbols.... proving... blehhh!

*fingers crossed* Possible topics for my thesis. Hopefully, i dont die halfway doin it. 

My superly packed time table for this week till.. the last day of exams. :(

Whats in due?

Macro 10% Presentation, Macro 20% Survey Paper, Micro 50% Test, Econometric Techniques 15% Assignment, Financial Economics 40% Assignment. Two 70% Final Exams.

and why am I still here bloggin?? Sigh. 100% will regret for not having sufficient time. 

How i wish, I could skip all these and go back Msia to see my bestiess and celebrate their buttdays!!! Miss them much, Jacq Dee Munhoe. and Sheela.. in NewCastle. lol! Happy birthday to all May Babiesss. xoxo

and no.. i'm not going back to Msia after exams. Flight tickets are way too expensive :( *sob

Despite all these pre-stress period..

Chocolates will never fail to fill me up!

Signing out.
I like boys men who can cook!