Write

Today, I'll promise myself that I'll write. I'll write as much as I can. Regardless how terrible my writing is, how bad I've said it, I will continue to write.. to tell my story.

Because I know, these words will mean so much more tomorrow and even more the day after and so on.

A week ago I thought I've lost my previous blog, a blog that I used to post about anything and everything since 2007. Good thing I found out that I've actually imported all my posts to this current blog - just sitting unpublished. What a relief - damn right!

Now, good night

Brunch @ Deadmans Espresso

Hotcakes with banana cream custard, maple syrup and cinnamon crunch!

Mmm mmm mmm the best!

View from afar

Home sweet home, Malaysia.

General election has just passed with an unfair election process. And, with all honesty I do not have much knowledge in Malaysian politics. All the news and information that I read were through of course, the Facebook. Therefore, I do not have the right to say much about what has happened. But, just a little thought about me as a Malaysian who lives abroad.

I stayed in Melbourne for good 4 years, and I've known several friends who had experienced racism. Well lets face it, we can't avoid racism anywhere in this world. But, when it comes down Malaysians - I must say every single Malaysian I've met, they've introduced themselves as Malaysians, not chinese, malay, indian or any other race. Because the Malaysian community is small (*well it's pretty big in Melb, but relatively speaking among Australians and other foreigners), we talk share laugh like we've known each other for ages. There's no race issue and I feel as if we are a better community on our own than back in Malaysia.

Now, why can't Malaysians in Malaysia be the same? No doubt, there are several reasons to this, exposure education equality etc.. personally, I think it all comes down to how racist you are *joke. Racist people go shits about racism and they never stop - and they influence.

Despite the unfair and corrupted election, life goes on. People of Malaysia have spoken, their voices have been heard and this I'm proud of. Good or bad outcome, all I want is a safer Malaysia.

Please take care for those back home.

Love.

Intoxicated

"If I could stay intoxicated forever, I'll be the happiest person on earth"

Have you ever wonder what will happen if you were intoxicated forever? And I mean, alcohol intoxication. Its the easiest most common way to get intoxicated. Well, it depends on what your reaction towards alcohol, yeh? I become care-free haha. Emo ones are the worst. Been with an emo drunk once, never wanna come across with one ever again in the future. So, yes I'd like to be intoxicated. Because all I care is the present, like the past didn't exist and tomorrow never comes. How fun is that!

Signing out
I'm living in denial, yes. I know.

Live by Day

"I would never thought life could be harder when life is already hard. So now it freaks me out because there's no measure of hardness in life."

Life is always easy when I was a kid. Yes it is true, i'll get anything i want. Then I grew up.. High school was fun every year was a learning step. Plenty of time to procrastinate. And then, I got into uni, that's when I had 2 semesters in a year. Back then life was tough coping with studies every semester ie 6 months. After uni, yes graduated! Now in the real world every single month I receive "wonderful" bills piling up under my name *not my parents i wish! I've got to pay my monthly rent, insurance, phone bill, utilities etc. I've lived 1 year of independence. Life is hard. But, bills aren't the only worries that I've got. Say hello to friends family colleagues and people around. They do give a little bit of headache, or sometimes always heartache.

For the past month, I swear I've never encountered so many incidents in life. Almost every single day. Then I start to wonder the next best disastrous thing that could happen lol.

I guess, you can always plan the future but what's more important is the present. Plans can always change. Like they always say, 'Live by day because Tomorrow is a promise to no one'. Now that's my quote for the year.

These posts that I've written recently are not to show regrets nor attention. I'm pretty sure everyone goes through the same shit. I'm not perfect, I've been used, pushed and left alone alot of times. If you're reading this, stop comparing lives with others. Just be comfortable with who you are and live every moment. If you're already stuck in hell, stay there and make a party. But never lose yourself obviously. When you're out of that shit hole hell, voilà! At least you had a good party? :/

Good night all.