Disappointing

"the ability to put up a smile and stand tall are the strong ones but not anything beneath it..sometimes I wish I was stronger from beneath"

 Sun in the night. Never fades. Never disappears. I wish I had a sun like this in my heart forever to brighten my everyday.

I feel friggin downnn.. OMG. I dont know what should I do now. Felt like a huge brick just fell on me and broke my body into tiny pieces. The amount of effort put in for the past 5 months is way over my shoulders but the results doesnt seem to show any better. I need hell load of faith to continue what im doing but I cant seem to find it. If I would to give up now, will it better? Will I regret for giving up? Never felt this much of disappointment in MY LIFE! I think I need some self-eficacy therapy, anywhere in mind?wtf. urgh. :'(

Welcome to my blog of disappointments and sadness. Nothing seems to be fine, literally.. except the time spent with friends.

Signing out.