Past Left Unwanted

"Get up, walk straight, stop. look back, admire how far you've walked, smile. look front, continue walking forward..never afraid to fall down again because you're not walking on the same path."

 

How do you convince someone that you're telling the truth when that someone has been through the opposite of what the truth is?

Answer: Time will tell.

but, what if patience fall before time?

8 Randoms:

• I finally got my Tupperware tumbler. I'm a happy easily-satisfied girl!
• It's 3am in the morning and I've a class at 10am tomorrow. Tell me why am I not sleeping?
• Tomorrow is freee transport day, and I've no where to go. More like.. no cash to party..
• If I have money, I want to get a lomography camera, and I want to go skiing.
• Got a toffee, a few chuppachups, a box of popcorn, an apple, during the Countdown for Iphone4. and no, I didnt get one. Im a berryinblue person.
• Ate icecream on the way back, ice creams never let me down. 
• Lecturer said Honours students are smarter than Masters. I'm not convinced. 100% doubt I am. 
• My parents have low expectations on me. They pray for me to Pass. I pray to get Distinctions. Very demotivating. 

Video below, I think she has 90% higher vocabulary, IQ, and knowledge than me. not good. ifeelstupid but good speech.

 

Signing out.

I see you

"Life's not so complicating when there's nothing in between."

Sometimes its better to leave than to stay

Sometimes its better to neglect than to care

Sometimes its better to forget than to remember

Sometimes its better to stay apart than to stay close

Sometimes doing the right things will not lead to the right outcome

 So, should we play nice or nasty?

For now, idontgiveafuck :)

needs extreme luck, motivation, hardwork, and a geek's brain  

life's good without the heart.

Signing out.

What if

"What if.. everyone knows the future, will enemies exist in the world then?"

What if people knew the future? will people have boundaries in their lives? with only a certain amount of friends? who hardly make any mistakes in life? The good thing is, you can always avoid sadness but.. sometimes the journey towards sadness brings happiness. Which sacrifice would u make? going through that one sadness or sacrificing the chance of being happy for a period? Remember, when you had so much fun in life till you found out you had to leave someplace or someone? If you knew things will end up so badly, do you think you'll even be in that place or with that one?

The beauty of life..

I rather not know the future and let the present do its thing towards future. 

Second semester in Honours, is somewhat not as hectic as the 1st. Not sure if its a good thing, but i know the subjects this semester is wayyy tougher. It's so unfair that Masters students get to do their assignments in groups, whereas, in honours we had to do it individually :( No wonder some say Honours are tougher than Masters! but i doubt so? i dont know.. maybe.. For now, I only have 6 hours of class, 2 subjects, so 3 hours each subject, Wed & Fri.. so free right? lol. not to forget, I've my thesis to do!!! 

In about a week time, it'll be August. 5 more months before I head back to Malaysia. It's amazing how time flies and before you know it, I'm back in Msia working my ass off in God-knows-what. I dont know even know if I'll survive in investment banks for life coz I doubt I will even for a week. 9 to 5pm job aint my style of living my world man.. oh well, we'll see. If you see me begging for money in ss15, pls spare me some money ok? :)

Signing out.

Loving the sun shining through my window.

Disappointing

"the ability to put up a smile and stand tall are the strong ones but not anything beneath it..sometimes I wish I was stronger from beneath"

 Sun in the night. Never fades. Never disappears. I wish I had a sun like this in my heart forever to brighten my everyday.

I feel friggin downnn.. OMG. I dont know what should I do now. Felt like a huge brick just fell on me and broke my body into tiny pieces. The amount of effort put in for the past 5 months is way over my shoulders but the results doesnt seem to show any better. I need hell load of faith to continue what im doing but I cant seem to find it. If I would to give up now, will it better? Will I regret for giving up? Never felt this much of disappointment in MY LIFE! I think I need some self-eficacy therapy, anywhere in mind?wtf. urgh. :'(

Welcome to my blog of disappointments and sadness. Nothing seems to be fine, literally.. except the time spent with friends.

Signing out.

Unknown consequence

"What happens if you have a life dictionary that tells you the consequences you will face after choosing an option, would everyone in the world be happy? but wouldn't one be happier with a surprise?"

good or bad, let it be a choice than no where.

How's life? Results are out tomorrow, thesis outline is due coming Friday, classes are starting next Monday. Not forgetting, 500 words for thesis tomorrow 10am, not a single line. Life's not very good. Hope and prays everything will be fine :) 

Bad consequences doesn't come unless we've put in the effort. And perception changes depending on how you embrace the situation. No one's weird, no one's crazy, no one's sad nor happy. It's you and your perception. I'm happy with my perception and facing the consequences is just something to learn from. Life that is. Feelings goes up and down down down down.. waiting to be pushed up but when? I'll get there if I was a little more stronger, or a little more wiser, or a little more aware, that's if.. only if...

Oh, God knows what am i talking. LOL!

Let's go back to our teens..

I cant take my eyes off this video! Thanks to all the lovely puppies. I so want one! makes me happy whenever i see one. :)

Signing out~
I wish I had a life dictionary at this very point in time.